Inescapable.
We are all dying. One. Day. At. A. Time. Remember that. You’re welcome. I’m miserable. And I like to share…
Category: Illness
Skin
I can’t love anyone. I can’t trust anyone. I’m socially anxious and awkward. I’m reclusive. I haven’t been able to work for over eight months. I have nightmares every other night. Searching fruitlessly behind cold blue irises in my dream state, for signs or the expression of depth. I have panic attacks randomly and in […]
Thinking.
Listen to this track. Nathan’s words say me better than I can today. Just asked a friend and fellow writer: can I let go of my pain, when pain makes me who and what I am. Pain. Darkness. They are the juice that flow in my veins and from my pen. Take them away, what […]
Compelled…
The death of Us Rendered me a mediocre Video game character. Inhabiting an alternate reality Full of bugs and glitches Prohibitively difficult So there’s no fun Perma-blue, once lovable thing, so armed with sharp-bladed words and a gushing disembowelment ritual suicide upon an altar you once fooled me was cherished. Boring, frustrating, ultimately pointless, bleeding […]
Now I’m just like you…
I’m angry in my bones. Tainted by your stain and perfumed in your stench. I don’t recognize or understand the grizzled grey face that looks at me with brown cowed eyes. You were forever, to me. The one where one of us eventually dies, only I never expected you to die on me… Didn’t I […]
Not Today.
And so, God of Chaos with insane notions of balance or fairness, you come to claim my Father now? Death, you’ve taken too much from me already. Now you steal upon me, not with battalions but a single spy. I caught you – shivering across his grey face, hewn from rock seemingly more than skin. […]
Blackwater Ink 