I was dreaming of you And something inside told me I must wake Consciousness opened sorrow’s floodgates in my heart And the pain rushed in Poisoning another day Beyond you Past and away from you But never over… never ended… My spirit can’t be seen But it was broken
Blue-grey smoke holds allure Against the black Married in seamless perfection To my Cuban tobacco tongue Window down, system up Pulse pounds past giving a fuck Moonlight licking shore like Aromatic lips Each heart pluck a steel string Diamond diffusion Through broken tears Necrotic muscle sends Septic plasma round Highways & byways Beneath mayonnaise […]
We are all dying. One. Day. At. A. Time. Remember that. You’re welcome. I’m miserable. And I like to share…
I can’t love anyone. I can’t trust anyone. I’m socially anxious and awkward. I’m reclusive. I haven’t been able to work for over eight months. I have nightmares every other night. Searching fruitlessly behind cold blue irises in my dream state, for signs or the expression of depth. I have panic attacks randomly and in […]
That mad distemper That strikes both Beggar and King Turning latter into former Over torturous time. Learn to let go Of everything inside. Be done. Being held hostage By the ghost of happiness’ chance Becoming malignant spirit Haunting with nightmares, post-traumatic stress and cognitive dissonance. Can we just skip the ‘getting to know one […]
I’m angry in my bones. Tainted by your stain and perfumed in your stench. I don’t recognize or understand the grizzled grey face that looks at me with brown cowed eyes. You were forever, to me. The one where one of us eventually dies, only I never expected you to die on me… Didn’t I […]
The furrow my dead brother so often spoke of, before he left me alone to cope, finally has me firmly entrenched. Unable to see over the sides, let alone claw a way out. Shattered. Like dropped crockery. And the jagged delicate pieces won’t fit together. I want to cease. To die, the end, to blink […]
Last thought, before I fall to sleep. First thought, when I open my eyes. Face on the back of every bubble floating through my mind, every waking moment in between. Today I haven’t the strength for clever words. Just honesty. Dull boring honesty. We’ve heard it all before though, haven’t we? It still hurts […]
Across the dark, six winters past, clear cobalt sky found me in her bewitching gaze. Azure spheres simmering aflame, for me. Such fission entwined flesh. Valves of a once beating heart: no longer the brass section of devotion’s orchestra. Something wondrous, rotten from the start until it finally fell apart. One necrotic half – […]
I used the last of my Diesel today. A birthday gift from you, two years ago. When we were happy… I dropped the bottle in the recycling and wept bitter scolding tears, that burned my face in the December cold. A simple task, so painfully hard to do, as if I were somehow throwing one […]
Blackwater Ink 